The sweat is broken down to four parts. On the drive to sweat my friend told I should try and make it through the first round. My Native American guide told me to get out after the first round. I didn't want to face the snow and thought I was tough enough to make it another round so I stayed in. The second round was a lot hotter then the first. I saw a lot of spirits floating around this time. My Native American guide was pissed though and I heard him yelling at me and felt his rage the whole time. I tried to hum a long with the song but it was hard as I was having trouble breathing. This session ended with a prayer for all the people affected by mass shootings. I crawled out the teepee and got changed inside the house.
Our Native American leader asked me to help tend fire and do small chores like bring drinking water and water to pour on the rocks. After the sweat was over everybody changed and our leader went to his car. My Native spirit guide told me to follow him and give him some gas money. The leader thanked me for the money and said this was an old tradition, to give something to elders who traveled far to help. Next there was a potluck feast and we all ate well. The food tasted very good because the sweat was draining. Our leader explained me to me that the feast was part of the ritual. We offered a plate to the spirits and the food we ate represented food to all our family and ancestors. After the feast our leader said "Don't be discouraged by talk about white boys shouldn't do Native spirituality." I asked him "What if I am hearing that from my spirit guide?". He said "Your spirit guide needs to wake the fuck up and see the new way!". He told me that he saw my spirits inside the sweat and that I run with a tough crowd. My Indian spirit was good, just old fashion but my higher power was a bad dude and I should consider finding someone else.
Ultimately it was a very profound, intense experience. It is going to take me more prayer and meditation before I decide to go back. I think I want to have a goal next time. Maybe to try and help my Native spirit guide to see the new way. Perhaps try and find more spirit guides. I thinking praying for your family is what you are supposed to do so that would be good. I've been invited to the summer festival also so I will meditate about that as well.